Dilemma

I have two jobs. My full time job as a flight attendant keeps me away from home about 15 days a month. I love the travel, the crazy schedule, my crews and co-workers. I like being able to go to San Fran at a moment's notice or visit my brother and his wife (and soon my new neice or nephew!) in Dallas whenever I want.

My other job is part-time, and I work as a make-up consultant/cashier at a retail store. I get a really nice discount on prestige cosmetics, hair products, and fragrances. I like the people I work with, the customers, I like knowing the product lines and how to apply them. However, I hate being away from Chris any more than I already am. Generally, the retail store wants me to work on Saturdays. I usually fly out on Sundays. I haven't worked at the store in about a month.

Now, I feel badly about this. I can't motivate myself to call in and ask to be scheduled for a few hours. I'm starting to feel that I'd be taking advantage of the generous discount the store offers when I purchase items. And yet, I can't bring myself to quit. The store will definitely interfere with leisure travel that I'd like to do this year with Chris. The extra money for a whole days' work, while nice, is about what I make in a few hours flying.

I know I should probably resign or quit. I don't know how long it will be until they let me go. If I worked one day I wouldn't feel badly about going in and buying stuff, but I think I've finished my beauty product shopping spree. (Although I'm low on the Ojon shampoo and conditioner.) I guess my question is, do I go in and quit or do I wait for them to fire me? Does it matter?